Grandma Passed Away

I was on compassion leave for two days.

My grandmother passed away on August 9, 2008. She was 93 year old. She has 5 sons and 3 daughters. In total, she has 101 of sons, daughters, grandchildren and great grandchildren. 5 generations in her lifetime and I am on the third generation, grandchildren.

This is the first time I attended a formal grand funeral. Most of the relatives were there. It was a tiring ceremony.

I met my so called father (Mr. Lee) at the funeral. It has been 20 years since the last time I met him in Taiwan. I don’t know how to greed him and talk to him. I just node my head when I saw him. Feel rather uncomfortable as I have tried my best to avoid him. He did not come to talk us (me and my brother) as well. My second brother, Lester arrived at Tuesday night. He can’t recognised me. I walked to him and introduce myself. Lester went to Taiwan when he was 13 years old. I am only 10 years old at that time. I have not met him and talk to him for almost 20 years. I am really sad when I think about this. We did not get to talk as the ceremony is still on going. I just feel so strange with everything going on. I don’t talk to Mr. Lee because I choose not to and I don’t know what to talk to Lester but I hope we can sit down and talk the whole night. Later of the night, after the ceremony we get to talk a while. But it has been 20 years, too much thing has happened. I just felt Lester is trying to avoid us as well. He is my brother and yet I felt he is more like a stranger to me. I am really sad to have this feeling. He is going back to Taiwan on Thursday afternoon. I asked him to come to KL to pay a visit; we will give him a ride. He just finds much excuses of not going. I am sad….

Second day of the ceremony, in between the break, we exchange our number and email. I keep thinking, what is the purpose of exchanging those details. I have his email, and I have written to him before. He knew I was working in Beijing once. But why doesn’t he reply my mail. Exchanging details is just a formality. It is just an excuse for me to talk to him. I am sad….After exchanging those details, taken few photos, he excuses himself.

Every time I see him with his Taiwan sister (adopted sister) talking freely. I feel sad, very sad.

The ceremony still going on and on….. Standing for hours again, kneeling up and down, and walk under the extremely hot sun with only a pair of white socks on the leg.

After the ceremony, everyone is leaving. I don’t know when we will have chance to meet again. Probably in another big event. I don’t think wedding is a big event for Lester to travel to KL. I guess we will meet in another funeral. Whose funeral will this be?

When we were leaving, I was hesitating whether I should say goodbye to Mr. Lee, I was waiting my elder brother, Vincent to make the move. But all of us just don’t know where to start. We were standing aside for a while. At last Vincent makes the move, we shake his hands. This is the atmost I can do. I feel sad….. sad.

August 08, 2008 (08082008)

I am getting really excited about the opening ceremony of Olympic Games. I recall 4 years ago the Olympic opening ceremony in Athens was on August 13, 2004, Friday. I only get to watch 10 minutes of the ceremony and I need to start my journey for a diving trip in Tioman. I intend to finish watching the opening ceremony. If so, I would not able to reach my destination on time and will miss the ferry to Tioman Island.

This time of Olympic, I make I don’t have any appointments or activities. I make sure I stay in front of the TV and do the count down. Olympic in Beijing meant a lot for me. I have been staying in Beijing for 2.5 years. I know the place and culture and I feel closer to Beijing and hence this year Olympic.

Get to know that today is an announced public holiday in Beijing. Well deserved.

The first thing I am going to do after I am home today is to take out the Beijing Olympic mascot and put it somewhere obvious. (Pending attach photos).

Excited…..

Weird encounter in Gym

I have been working out in Fitness First for a year. Yesterday was the first day someone walks to me and talks to me.

I finished my RPM class (cycling class). Taking a 15 minutes break before I go for other class (Body Balance). Within these 15 minutes, I went to the weighing machine thinking to check my weight. When I am in front of the weighing machine, a uncle came to me and said. “Don’t you feel pain the way you clip your hair?” I gave him a weird looking expression, if he is able to read my face, I should be saying “Do I know you??? Your pick-up line sucks” Guess he did not catch what I am trying to tell him since he keep asking questions like, do you come here often, where do you work, where is your office, working as what, where do you stay, what kind of food you have for lunch around your office… I just tell him, nothing much to eat around my office, we just have food court in my office. He was surprise and said, then how should I ask you out for lunch…… Before he continues, I ask him what the time is, and act in a way like I am really rushing for another class; in fact I still have 10 minutes before the class start. If he is handsome, I might spend my 10 minutes talking to him. Too bad… UNCLE hehehe…..